These mood spikes are really starting to get to me.
I hate when I’m in an incredibly good mood and feeling like I’m over all the shit that’s happened, then I see something that brings me crashing down in an instant.
Especially when it’s stupidly simple things like seeing a status stating “top of the world.”
It feels like a jab at me, like now that I’m gone their life has improved drastically, but at the same time I may just be acting too self centered.
I want to question directly whether or not we are to ever even be friends again, but I have a strong feeling that I would actually just be ignored rather than receive some closure.
Ahhhh I wish I could just erase bits and pieces of my memory so I wouldn’t have to torment myself so often over the past.